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Thursday, June 8, 2006


heart racing, fingers quaking,
my body is not my own;
autoresponse triggered by
the bitch inside my head.
the constant anxious buzz
crescendos, the storm builds.
i struggle to find my center,
to ride in the eye of the maelstrom...

back in the trenches,
emotional bullets whizzing by,
i search for cover, for refuge.
fight or flight, do I run or dig in?
is there another way?
i tell myself
this is not who I am,
i didn't ask for this.
but deception is an endless, spiraling path
i don't want to take.

observe what happens to me,
affected by what is around me.

try to accept where I am
in this moment,
in this place,
right now.

and drop the expectations,
the frustration
of wanting to be done with it.

sometimes that's all you can do,
and that's enough...
for the moment.

The world awaits just up the stairs
Leave the pain for someone else.
Nothing back there for you to find,...
Or was it you, you left behind?


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